What is Collinsport but the seat of lies?  Generations of Collinses have grown up believing that we were paragons of honor, and that we should lead the denizens by benevolent example.  I have found all of that undone by an island strumpet of the most vacant mask. There is no decision made by me that has been correct, leading me to question my own firmness of mind.  Chaos and falsehoods have become such the rule that I must ask if this has always been the case, and was I merely unaware?

Collinsport, have you been the greatest lie of all?  Have the voices of my ancestors, dating back to Good Issac Collins and beyond, all spoken nothing but that born from caprice and convenience and cowardice?

I know this because I dare not speak the truth of what has transpired, and I now realize this makes me no better than Angelique, herself.  Upon a proper accounting, have I spoken any full truths in my life?

The truth is not, in essence, a virtue.  It is only virtuous when it is used to combat evil.  In my stiff-necked adoration for expedience, I have failed my family and the future, if there ever is to be one from the seed of Daniel.

The greatest evil of all is not the lie.  The greatest evil is the ignorance of when to suspend those lies… and to thwart those whose sole advantage is our fear to do so.  If there is a curse at Collinwood, it is our refusal to look past that fear.  I cannot do so.  If Collinwood is to survive, it will be in thanks to the man brave enough to gaze beyond fear and pain.

Were I that man, how many would still be alive?  Were I that man, how many future deaths would have been averted?

I am not that man.

— Joshua Collins, 1796



2 Comments on “452”

  1. mrsgreenhands June 3, 2013 at 12:51 am #

    Reblogged this on Mrsgreenhands’s Weblog.

  2. Liam Vincent June 1, 2016 at 3:49 pm #

    I’m coming in very late here, but I’ve gotta say that this is really powerful stuff. You really got to the core of Joshua’s inner turmoil in just this single entry. I’m really enjoying the Chronicles overall, as well. This is a great achievement!

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